upon a falling star...

From now on, I will blog about days where I feel like my INFP traits really show  If any of you do not know what an INFP is, please take a look here:  http://www.16personalities.com/infp-personality In a nutshell, we are the true idealists. We believe in helping people, but despair in our ability (or lack thereof) to do so. We genuinely wish for world peace (although we know it isn't realistic) and we stick stubbornly by our morals and principles.  We can be creative as well. I guess what really makes us tick is when someone's actions isn't aligned with our principles? Especially those really important morals and values. Let me explain... Ok, so one thing is that this customer was really friendly and we talked a lot whilst she was shopping and she asked for my number. and well I was just thinking "oh ok why not, another friend." although I can't really make friends and I was actually surprised (in a good way) she wanted to be my friend. So I thought...

So I'm back to blogging after so long!  It's 2015 and I've graduated from JC, what's up next is getting my results and entering uni. I'm not sure what to feel, but I do feel excited for uni, especially if I get to study the stuff that I love! I've decided to restart this blog for a few reasons. Firstly, I want to put some of my thoughts out there. Sometimes I feel like I have so many ideas in my head but no one to communicate it with. Yknow, so if there are people actually reading my posts... I just put my thoughts out here assuming people will read it. Anonymously.  Secondly, this is like my online diary. Things that aren't too sensitive or too personal to me I guess I could put it out here just to record down things in my life that I wish to remember a few years down the road. I mean I could always come back and read my old posts! And thus, you could say that I've started on a clean slate. I have removed hundreds of posts which I deeme...

Alas, I'm back to rant about my hazy thoughts again. I feel that writing/typing my thoughts out helps me establish them better. Sooo recently I've been feeling so aimless. Like literally. In the past I've so many dreams and passions and I had so many careers in mind. As if a flower that once bloomed, now it has all wilted away. Let's establish a timeline. 1) Artist. As a child, that was my very first dream. I was enrolled in Art classes and even though I could say that my drawings really sucked now that I look at them, I was always happy doing crafts and drawing random stuff. Colouring painting and drawing things around me, or things that never exists, fulfills me. I was also very interested in art classes in school. I always wanted to get an A. I remember the time when I was selected to go to the Art Museum and look at Picasso's and Van Gogh's art works. At that point in time I couldn't really appreciate them, considering how dense I was....

I don't know where you are in this world You said you would be back in a month You obviously didn't keep your word. When are you coming back? I sort of hate you for leaving us behind Kinda wondering what u are doing right now Where the hell are you? Knowing you, I earnestly hope you don't get into trouble You're freaking gone I admit there are days when I don't even think of you. There are days I come home and everything feels fine Actually, everyday is fine However, this does not mean that I do not miss you Sometimes I think about the fun we had Sometimes I think about how we always fought How you would always lie and acted as a saint too.  You must think we hate you You must think everyone do We don't call, sms or talk to you You must think you are better off gone Well, you are partially wrong I don't hate you but I don't miss you that much Life IS better without you here Things are so much simpl...

# Pisces never take things for face value & see it's always more than what the naked eye can see. -@AllAboutPisces That's totally spot on LOLOL. Please refer to the sidebar, 'Everything is not as it seems' Am I the only one that wants to remain in my childhood? Am I the only one that doesn't want to grow up? Am I the only one that just wants things to never change? I see so many of my friends getting so grown up, Going to work during the holidays and stuff. And I'm like, The only one that's trying to enjoy my childhood. Lazing around, and being like a kid!!!!! Maybe people want independence? Maybe people just want to grow up? Maybe people wants to be realistic? Maybe they are more mature? But doesn't growing up give you a lot more shit? :/ I think maybe I'm thinking too much. Maybe I'm childish (shit I should stop spamming maybes) But I don't get why people don't want to enjoy ...

Let's talk about My life. Yes my life. Maybe boring for most of you Or tear-jerking May make you feel guilty Angry Lucky or maybe it's just nothing at all. My aim of this post is not to make people sympathise I'm just gonna type it out And share it with people who are at least interested in knowing about my life Or why I always have 'emo' tweets I do hope to inspire though :) Here goes... Past A really happy family. Dad earns a lot Mum earns a few K too Life was smooth sailing Maids to do everything, literally What a lazy bum I was. Had good grades Was in the best class in 6 years of pri sch 1B 2B 3B 4B 5B 6B We would always go for holidays Oh how I wish things would always remain the same But things don't. Now when I think back, I detest myself from the past. I was so ignorant, and really stupid. Taking things for granted. That's when you least expect a disaster to strike Ok so d...

When you are playing a violin, you play with feelings Beautiful, the sound may be.. But if you're not careful If you're too forceful The strings break This applies to everything we do. Sometimes, if we try too hard... We tend to break something we didn't intend to ruin It's not good to suppress feelings too You've got to let them out somehow And Idk why am I typing this. Hmmm.. maybe I'm teaching myself a lesson... BUT IM HAPPY WITH A NEW FOUND PEACE IN ME. Now when I just stare out into the dark night sky... I do not feel afraid... I feel calm. Placcid. Sigh....... not many would really understand how I feel. ok some only. rarely. not even my closest friend. but i know that some friends will understand hmmmmm... how much I wish that these friends of mine and I will grow closer I think my posts contradict with each other Like one moment I can sound so destructive and keep ranting and saying how things are hopeless and feel all an...

Since I feel oh-so-emo now, I shall post about the things I have obsessions with. It's also the 'places' where I take refuge. I'm sorry if this post is boring. I just ain't perfect. And I never will aim to be. First up: Fairytales Fairytales are one of the most mysterious things that I admire. Why were they even made, when they are opposites of reality? Ever thought why they always have happy endings? Some of us still fall in love with fairytales I'm one of them. To some of you, fairytales are stupid. But I like it's innocence, purity, and peacefulness... When I feel down, I look at fairytales, and I know that there's always a happy ending. I can keep my head up like that. Cos I know there's a happy ending. Reality otherwise, you just don't know where it goes. So when I read a fairytale, I have an assurance... I feel at ease. I feel safe and comfortable. I never realised fairytales were my secret...