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8/8/11

Ola!
We celebrated National Day in school today.
Well, this year, we started off with tree planting!
I thought it was better la, but tree planting is still boring. -.-"
I mean like, I can't see anything.
Besides, Sin Oi Leng's child was more entertaining ♥

Sat with YiXin during the celebration, cos we were both lonely people :((

SG Flag Tattoos :) Patriotism!


Yixin, you seriously look damn cool here. ♥
Really my boyfriend siol :)

Hil and I ♥

Bag my mum bought for me for getting 2nd in class!



I know many of you will think why I so unfilial still say I dun like my mum.
But you know what, don't judge. You don't know the story.
I'm not unfilial. I'm just rebellious. Two separate things.

Was with Ying Xin and LiYing after that. Wanted to watch Rise of the Planet Apes but lingling dunwan :(
Ok so in the end we just went shopping at Bugis + Orchard Ion.
And we took neoprints :)


Today was really cool.
but my feet are so sore!!! anw I'm so glad the next 2 days are holidays
So many things on my mind! I need to think through many things (again)

On a side note, I think I might be suffering from depression from time to time.
Lol, thoughts of suicide, since primary... 4? I almost died.
And I'm still living, right now, blogging.
Somehow I feel things happen for a reason.
I was so close to death.
SOCLOSE.

And I'm glad, I'm still alive.
I'm glad that I lived till this day.
Even though I'm still having these thoughts, about suicide,
I won't let them get into me anymore.
Cos I know, living for a little while more, just makes a lot of difference.
You meet people, you talk to people, you help people, you change people.
If not, people can change you.

So if there are any teenagers out there, feeling depressed,
Hey, dun give up. It's not the end of the world.
Live a little while more, and maybe you'll find what's worth living for.
For me, I'm really, just living for myself. Temporarily.

I want to see new things, I want to see snow, I want to see nature, I want to see mountains.
I want to see the world.

I want to meet more people, that are going to walk the road of life with me.
Hope is not lost.

The strangest things about people,
We always get lost, finding ourselves at a crossroad, don't know what to do.
And we feel like giving up.
But we don't, really.

We still try, we still hang on. Even if you are still stuck in that same spot,
At least you didn't give up. You're still trying.

If you don't try, how do you know what's waiting for you on the other side?

We always find our way, on our own, and maybe with a little help.
But much of it, still depends on us.

Would it make a difference, to just die?
Trust me, living will bring you more joy than tears.
But, we must learn how to live.
If not if our body is living, and our soul isn't,
That isn't really living. LOL

Even though I still feel sad and depressed like half of the time,
but that's part and parcel of life.
What happiness can be found if there is no sorrow?
If everything was happiness, do we know sorrow?

For example, everyday you are laughing your ass off with your friends.
You're with the perfect guy.
NOTHING GOES WRONG.
But, given that situation, how do you know you are happy?
Everything is the same, everyday.
It's all thanks to sorrow, that we know happiness.
Vice versa.

We need a balance in life.
Yes, who doesn't want to be happy?
But if we were,
We aren't human.












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